Wednesday, January 31, 2007

I'm just tired.

Have you ever just been tired? I am just tired. In fact I just slept for almost an hour on the boys floor while they played around me. You know that kind of sleep - the kind where, yes you are asleep, but no you aren't. You can sit up at any moment and see why someone is crying or tell someone to stop pushing and then go right back to your "sleep zone". That was me! I had planned on napping while the kids did, but that might be able to get me through the day!

I think I got even more tired today after looking at the workout schedule I need to be keeping. Here is my deal - I LOVE to workout - BUT I hate to workout. Anyone else feel that way? Yesterday I had about 25 min before I had to be somewhere so I went to the Y and ran 2 miles in about 18 min and felt great. Then this morning Laura and I hit the spin class for 45 min and then did a few arm weights. For some reason I was dead aftewards. Here is the deal though - this Saturday is 12 weeks out from the 1/2 marathon that I really want to do. That means no more playing around - I HAVE to work out and really need to love it too! There is also a 5K in two weeks that I think I can handle. Maybe that will give me the boost of confidence that I need!

I just added up the amount of miles that I have ran in January and it is not good. From Jan 2 to Jan 31, I ran a grand total of 23.8 miles and did spin class two times. This is where I get tired. I just added up how many miles I'm "supposed" to run in the next 12 weeks before the marathon - 200! Did you see that - 200! That is roughly 16 miles a week, which is roughly four times what I ran each week in January. BUT good thing is that it is a progressive training and you don't run 16 miles the first week. You work up to it!

So I really want to do this, but I am so scared to commit for fear of failure. What if I don't get in my 16 miles a week, what if my back starts hurting bad again, what if I have a bad week that turns into two bad weeks and I get way off the training schedule. UGH!

Well, speaking of tired .... I am off to take a bath while the kids are napping and read my SHAPE magazine! It says on there that you can have sexy arms in two weeks and loose 8 lbs in one week!


Becca said...

It must be the week to be tired. I felt not so great yesterday but pushed myself to run 2 miles and do some ab work. I sneezed and sniffed ALL day. Finally at 5pm I took some NyQuil. BIG mistake! I couldn't hold my head up by 6pm and I had supper going and no husband home yet!! By the time he got home and we sat down to eat, I had my head on the table--seriously! My poor wonderful husband cleaned the kitchen and bathed the kids while I was a zombie.

I didn't get a workout in today. But don't be so hard on yourself! Remember, your training schedule is a suggested schedule, and not a recipe that has to be follwed exactly. I worried about that last time I trained, but it will really be OK. If you want to run, you will, and if you run 2.5 instead of 3, or 8 instead of 9 some days, it will all be OK. And if your back hurts and you take a day or two off, you'll still be fine! YOU CAN DO IT!!

annie said...

I agree with Becca... I'm tired this week too. I took one of those "not really asleep" naps Wed. afternoon when I snuck out of work early at 3:30. I was on the couch and the girls were in the living room with the tv on, cheerios on the floor and fighting about toys while i 'slept' with one eye open and ready to yell at whoever was not being nice at the time.... that's not rest. i felt worse after i got up.

i think the weather just makes it all worse.